july 6th, 2026
hello hello hello testing testing well it's good to be back! i have been doing basically nothing for the last two weeks except playing lots of video games (destroyed re5, btw i launched my ass through that game and silent hill 2) and reading a whole bunch which has been lovely to say the least. i just hope that there's a lil more to life than this you know. i've been reading dungeon crawler carl and the thought of there being a universe of bullshit makes me feel weirdly comfortable. hell, there's a universe worth of bullshit on Earth that i haven't explored yet and here i am complaining that i can't get out of my hometown bubble. that's gonna change in a little bit when i go back to florida, but who knows.
another good thing that dcc has taught me is that maybe my weird fixation with wanting to be able to fight things isn't for nothing and might be cool to do. i have a lot of anger and i think that learning how to punch stuff (not holes in walls, although i've always wanted to) might be awesome for me. it's also really got me thinking about writing again. recently i've been unsuccessfully trying to be an essay writer when i realized that i absolutely do not enjoy writing the essays. like the ones in shrines and stuff... i get so self-conscious of those because i don't think that they really end up being of any value. they're just some words i strung together in hopes of beefing out the shrine and conveying how much that certain thing means to me. it's boring, i need to redo the individual shrines immediately. i really want to branch out in reading more dc comics, although it's gonna have to wait after i finish dcc because i finished the fourth book today and went to update the website as a "break" and i've been able to think of nothing else since. probably not healthy but i am reading again which i must've complained about at one point or another on this site.
hello hello hello testing testing well it's good to be back! i have been doing basically nothing for the last two weeks except playing lots of video games (destroyed re5, btw i launched my ass through that game and silent hill 2) and reading a whole bunch which has been lovely to say the least. i just hope that there's a lil more to life than this you know. i've been reading dungeon crawler carl and the thought of there being a universe of bullshit makes me feel weirdly comfortable. hell, there's a universe worth of bullshit on Earth that i haven't explored yet and here i am complaining that i can't get out of my hometown bubble. that's gonna change in a little bit when i go back to florida, but who knows.
another good thing that dcc has taught me is that maybe my weird fixation with wanting to be able to fight things isn't for nothing and might be cool to do. i have a lot of anger and i think that learning how to punch stuff (not holes in walls, although i've always wanted to) might be awesome for me. it's also really got me thinking about writing again. recently i've been unsuccessfully trying to be an essay writer when i realized that i absolutely do not enjoy writing the essays. like the ones in shrines and stuff... i get so self-conscious of those because i don't think that they really end up being of any value. they're just some words i strung together in hopes of beefing out the shrine and conveying how much that certain thing means to me. it's boring, i need to redo the individual shrines immediately. i really want to branch out in reading more dc comics, although it's gonna have to wait after i finish dcc because i finished the fourth book today and went to update the website as a "break" and i've been able to think of nothing else since. probably not healthy but i am reading again which i must've complained about at one point or another on this site.
june 15th, 2026
i just had a problem with being accidentally registered for a summer class that i didn't even know about... like i guess haha it's a silly goofy mistake but it would be impossible for me to take this certain class right now AND it wouldn't be covered by my scholarship. ugh the future sucks to think about as well. i'm so sick and done with boring school, i want to take fun classes again that actually excite me instead of being just another hurdle i have to jump through.
another thing is that i had a gossip session with a very good friend today. i've been hanging out with lots of friends recently and it's really helped to remind me that i'm not some sick social pariah and that i am capable of having a community that supports me. makes me sad that i'm leaving them for four months, but i have a feeling i'll be back.
erm also the substack is keeping me up at night. i don't know what i really want to write about and it's bugging me. i've already redone it, but i have ideas on how to rewrite articles i literally JUST posted. i think i really need to narrow down my interests and how my writing is going to reflect those. for instance, i wrote about pete campbell from mad men but i did a kind of boring play by play of the metaphors at play. but because i think sociology and anthropology are cool, i really want to tie those into how pete campbell is kind of a representation of the looksmaxxing culture and this constant need to better yourself through the degrading of others. idk, food for thought i guess.
and that's my time! hopefully i end up making some progress on the rest of the site. i feel like i simultaneously have nothing to do with the website and everything to do with it.
i just had a problem with being accidentally registered for a summer class that i didn't even know about... like i guess haha it's a silly goofy mistake but it would be impossible for me to take this certain class right now AND it wouldn't be covered by my scholarship. ugh the future sucks to think about as well. i'm so sick and done with boring school, i want to take fun classes again that actually excite me instead of being just another hurdle i have to jump through.
another thing is that i had a gossip session with a very good friend today. i've been hanging out with lots of friends recently and it's really helped to remind me that i'm not some sick social pariah and that i am capable of having a community that supports me. makes me sad that i'm leaving them for four months, but i have a feeling i'll be back.
erm also the substack is keeping me up at night. i don't know what i really want to write about and it's bugging me. i've already redone it, but i have ideas on how to rewrite articles i literally JUST posted. i think i really need to narrow down my interests and how my writing is going to reflect those. for instance, i wrote about pete campbell from mad men but i did a kind of boring play by play of the metaphors at play. but because i think sociology and anthropology are cool, i really want to tie those into how pete campbell is kind of a representation of the looksmaxxing culture and this constant need to better yourself through the degrading of others. idk, food for thought i guess.
and that's my time! hopefully i end up making some progress on the rest of the site. i feel like i simultaneously have nothing to do with the website and everything to do with it.
june 11th, 2026
welcome to the first post in the miniblog! grr i'm so glad to have this page now. i've been itching to get back into the website, but i've been struggling to find new pages to add. i guess i need to start thinking out of the box and tap into my brain more.
recently, i've been playing and thinking a lot about resident evil and absolute batman. those are without a doubt the top two fixations as of late. especially since absolute batman 21 comes out very very soon and it's revolving around the penguin and two face, two of my favorite absolute adaptations of their originals. i thought it was impossible to make me like penguin, but i guess scott snyder is proving me wrong.
also coming soon is DELTARUNE CHAPTER 5? FR? i'm literally so excited for deltarune, it's probably my favorite game of all-time. i do need to brush up on my saves though, i don't think i ended up finishing my all-kill saves. but there's a lot to look forward to!!
also i think that i'm going to redo the home page colors and gifs every once in a while to keep things fresh and exciting for everyone.
welcome to the first post in the miniblog! grr i'm so glad to have this page now. i've been itching to get back into the website, but i've been struggling to find new pages to add. i guess i need to start thinking out of the box and tap into my brain more.
recently, i've been playing and thinking a lot about resident evil and absolute batman. those are without a doubt the top two fixations as of late. especially since absolute batman 21 comes out very very soon and it's revolving around the penguin and two face, two of my favorite absolute adaptations of their originals. i thought it was impossible to make me like penguin, but i guess scott snyder is proving me wrong.
also coming soon is DELTARUNE CHAPTER 5? FR? i'm literally so excited for deltarune, it's probably my favorite game of all-time. i do need to brush up on my saves though, i don't think i ended up finishing my all-kill saves. but there's a lot to look forward to!!
also i think that i'm going to redo the home page colors and gifs every once in a while to keep things fresh and exciting for everyone.