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Day 1: 10-29-2024

Hi everyone! So today I officially changed my major to film to go on the producing track. It's such a weird experience because I felt a pang of dread when I realized that I probably won't be able to change my major again. My major before was animation, which is just film but more specialized and I'm still minoring in it, but why do I feel so bad? I feel like I'm the scum of the Earth for changing my major to film and that I'm never going to get a job. What's even weirder is that I know in my head that even if I don't get a job in the industry, I can just become a manager at a bookstore or a Hot Topic or something, so why do I feel like I'm a failure before I've even started?

All of my friends switched their majors too, but they all switched to STEM majors. Now I'm terrified that I'm not doing the right thing and that I should have just switched my major to Project Management and just become a recluse who takes all of their classes online. I hate feeling scared about my future. I was so excited about the prospect of being able to learn more about my dream job (being a producer). I don't know, I think I'm just having regrets, which I hate.

I guess we'll just see how I feel about it once I really get into the program, but I'm genuinely scared that this was a bad idea.