Why People Hate School:
Or alternatively titled: My Crash Out
Hi! It's me, losing my mind! I am really upset today so many apologies if this is shittily written. Anyways, I love animation. I really do, and it has nothing to do with school. I'm an animation MINOR, and I have to take this class called History of Animation. I just got a 54/100 on the first test, where half of the questions were actually about animation. Most of the questions were about my professor's love of Indonesian art that I don't give a single fuck about. Oh, and by the way, all of this information is spread out between several hours of lectures. I am really upset because it is things like this that make a lot of people hate school.
Again, I thought that this class was going to be fun. I thought I would be able to watch weird shit and maybe write an essay on it or something, but school puts so much emphasis on tests. I would learn the material much better if I wasn't scared I was going to fail your stupid lockdown browser closed note bullshit test. Usually some professors are at least aware that students are taking their class as a requirement and make it easy through allowing open note. My psychology class literally allows us to take our own notes and use that on the test (WHICH I THINK IS A PERFECT MELD OF THE TWO), so I don't understand why you would make the class that most people have to take as a requirement unnecessarily hard for no apparent reason. When professors say things like closed note, it makes me want to cheat that much more. (That probably makes me sound like a shitty person, but I don't even fucking care.)
I think the thing that pisses me off the most is that I was genuinely excited to take this class. I was looking forward to this as a nice break between the rest of my schedule. BUT NO. It's a stupid fucking class. Most professors take the little joy you find in a subject and fucking kill it. Why do I care about this fucking stone thing from 500 years ago in my HISTORY OF ANIMATION class? Was the stone animated? NO IT FUCKING WASNT.
I just don't understand why professors make their classes more difficult for no apparent reason. Is it because they want to seem more smart than their students? Is it because they feel bad about themselves when they know they have an easy to pass class? What is the reasoning behind making a test closed-note and on lockdown browser? I understand if it's a department-wide decision that's out of their control, but I don't understand it from professors like mine who make the curriculum themselves. If it's a required class, give students a break and help them out a little. Let them take their own notes instead of forcing them to remember all of this imformation that they'll never need again. Uh yeah, it's called a peg board and it was made by Raoul Barre and you should have known that. Oh you thought Eastman made that Victorian era "Funny Faces" animation? No you idiot it was John Stuart Blackton! Fucking moron!!
Anyways, I apologize for being so mean to my professor. I know it was probably my fault and I should have studied blah blah blah, but I don't care about any of that. I care about professors adding stupid rules to their tests because it makes them feel better. I care about professors adding their own interests into their curriculum instead of just informing their students on what will suit them better off in the real world. I highly doubt knowing about who made the Battle of the Beetles and what it was called is going to help anyone in their animation career.
I think what most pisses me off is that things like this class are the reason I gave up on majoring in animation. All of the classes were so particular and contained nothing that is directly related to YOUR career. Why are the storyboard classes not focusing on giving you quality work to put in a portfolio? Why are focusing on museum-type animation instead of combining animation with film?
Why are we not taking students into account and allowing them flexibility or allowing them to take film classes because maybe they don't want to be a fucking animator, maybe they want a foundation of animation and storytelling to become a producer?
I know that there are some typo's in here because I was pretty pissed at the beginning, so please don't look at them. If you're in any kind of school and you're feeling the same as me (as in liking stuff but them hating it after a professor makes it unlikable) then know you're not alone. I'm so tired of pandering to professors in school, and college lowkey sucks right now. So yeah. I'll probably forget this test ever happened in a couple months from now, but I'll hopefully remember to update you on whether I can pull myself out of this hole or not!
Update: she changed my grade to a 71/100.